sleep deprived mama

Ok, we all know as Moms how hard it is to function on no sleep, and how the world can slowly start to steamroll out of control when we can’t put together a rational thought. Well, that has been my life for the last few weeks.

My two year old has decided that she doesn’t want to sleep alone anymore, she was sick and my husband let her sleep in our room and then we couldn’t get her out. I am all for those Mom’s that choose to co-sleep but I physically can’t do it, I mean I don’t even let my husband share blankets with me. I need to be fully “cocooned” as my husband calls it in order to fall asleep. So for two weeks, it was laying awake until she fell asleep and then carry her to her room, then falling asleep and be woken another 5-6 time throughout the night. We’ve all been there, sleep training is the absolute worst but it is necessary, necessary for not only your sanity but for your children to get a good nights sleep. So I started the battle, letting her cry it out, then going into her room and sitting in the chair until she fell asleep, then when all else failed and I was dead to the world I tried having her big sister sleep in her room with her. I know it doesn’t seem like the best idea but when you haven’t slept and you think you are going to go insane you will try anything right? So it worked for a little while, but then it started again, she was calling for me and my husband multiple times a night and now we had to get around our daughter’s mattress to get to her. So late one night I grabbed the Ipad and I put on a movie for her… BIGGEST MISTAKE EVER!!! Now she asked for it every night and it was a huge meltdown when the answer was no, so it became a thing bedtime came I would put her in her bed and tuck her in and turn on the iPad, I thought it would help and at that point we were all sleeping so why not right? Then all of a sudden it started happening, she would start screaming in the middle of the night, I jumped out of bed ran down the hall and she said: “the iPad turned off” … REALLY??. Now not only is she awake all hours of the night watching tv but I am being woken up because the iPad says “are you still there?” Something had to give! After about the 5th night I’d had enough, I sat down and started to think back to when the other girls were young, we never had this issue they always slept, we did the sleep train thing and after night upon night of my arm in the crib and crawling out of the room they were good. They both slept well in their rooms, what had I done differently? Why was this time so hard? Now mind you my oldest daughter is almost 11 and the middle will be 8 in two months so there was a significant age gap between them and Issy and I honestly forgot, I forgot all about the routine that I had in place when the others were small, how I would give them a bath using Live Clean Bedtime Bath and cream them all down using the same cream, and how we would cuddle together while reading a book and then put on their sound machines and watch them fall off to sleep. THAT’S IT!! when my husband walked in the door even though I looked a hot mess and I was exhausted, I told him that when all the little friends had been picked up I was taking cranky pants Issy to WalMart, and we were fixing this problem. Off we went she cried the entire way there, screamed about putting on her coat and her boots, tore off her hat and mittens in the car and yelled things like I want my Daddy, I don’t want you! But I kept a smile on my face, I knew she was just as exhausted as I was and that this was gonna fix it. Once we got to Walmart and because I hadn’t given in to the screaming she was calm, I let her walk like a big girl and we headed straight for the baby department where we took all the sound machines off the shelf and looked at all the things they did, we saw a hippo that had lights and sounds but it went to bed with her and I really didn’t want to give her something to play with, we found one that was just a light and another that did both and then we found this one by fisher price it is called the deluxe soother, it offered a night light, music and sounds, animal and stars projected on the ceiling and best of all it had an app to connect me to it at night FROM MY BED!! sold. We also stopped and got more bedtime bath and cream and two new books, and we headed home. I put her in the bath and she played happily with all the bubbles and my husband sat with her while I took all distractions out of her bed and set up the deluxe soother, I then got her out of the bath and dried her up, creamed her up with the bedtime bath cream, crawled into her big girl bed with her to read our new books, and laid with her as I showed her the stars on the roof and the wonderfully soothing music and then I sat in the chair in her room for 20 mins while she fell asleep and then guess what? I WENT TO BED, AND I SLEPT ALL NIGHT!! I know it isn’t a miracle that there will still be hard night ahead but for right now I am going to hang on to this #momwin and be happy that my baby and I both had a good night sleep and woke up refreshed and ready for the day. I will continue this routine each night because not only did she sleep, but that little time that we got to lay together and talk and read was so absolutely wonderful that I want to do it every day. We’ve all been there, right? So tell me about your sleep training, what worked what didn’t? Do you use a sound machine? Id love to hear from you!

Happy Hump Day


fisher price deluxe soother (or as I like to call it my dreams come true)
the dream team live clean calming bath/wash, live clean calming lotion, new books ‘the very cranky bear’ by Nick Bland and ‘You mean the world to me’ by Bayne Gibby and of course our favoutie book ‘Night, night baby’ by Parragon Books, and our new member of the sleep team the deluxe soother by fisher price


Christmas Traditions 

Each year I find myself more and more excited for Christmas. Yeah, I was that kid, you know; the first one awake that woke everyone else, the first one down the stairs, and the one with all the bubbly Christmas spirit while the rest of my family snarled as they tried to wake up. This year feels different, gone are the days when I would get up early and want to rush through the day,  I find myself longing for the quiet and peace that  Christmas brings and  the time I get to spend with my kids, the uninterrupted  time away from the day to day worldly chaos, where I can close the door and people understand that we just want to be a family. No work, no school, no ballet, no worries. We get to spend that quality time that is so few and far between these days, with all the running around and making sure we are where we need to be at the right time. It’s time to think only about what we want to do and not about what we HAVE to do. My family, like many others, has traditions; something that they can look forward to every year that is just for us. My Mom and Dad tried to with us but as kids we moved so often for my Dad’s work that nothing was ever the same, the only thing I knew was that traditionally  we all would decorate the tree together, and each of us girls got to put on our ornament from our first Christmas. So when I had kids I made it a priority to create things that my kids could look back on and say,  “at Christmas we…” and cherish our family time that we had together, and possibily pass them down to their our children some day. We started off with some little things like making sure they all had first Christmas ornaments and then we moved into things like once a week in December we would sit down to a bowl of popcorn and a Christmas movie and watch it together, no matter how busy the week is we always make the time. Or when we moved here 4 years ago we heard of this street near our house that does a huge Christmas lights show, so now we get in our jammies and blankets and go and check out the lights. They do amazing job and  the whole street participates they do it for charity and have a donation boxes to collect non-perishables and unwrapped toys, it’s truly amazing, and wonderful to see people sharing the Christmas spirit. We love it because everyone drives slowly down the street, no one is in a hurry and we sip our hot chocolates and ooh and aw at all the beautiful lights. But one of my favourite traditions has to be our Christmas Eve Box; I introduced this tradition when my older two were 5 and 3, I went and bought one of those fancy gift boxes from Homesense, and filled it with fun things for my girls and I to do on Christmas Eve. Back then my husband traveled a lot for work and he was usually home late Christmas Eve or in the early hours Christmas morning so it was a way to keep us occupied while we waited for him to come home. We’ve done it now every year and my kids absolutely love it! I think it is all of our favourite tradition as we get an entire day to stay in our jammies and hang out together. I swear you can see them get more and more excited about Santa  and his arrival as the day goes on. 

Keep reading below to find out more about the Christmas Eve box!

Picture with Santa at the Pickering Town Centre another tradition of ours dating back to when I was a little girl. 

The Christmas box:

So the Christmas Eve box is supposed to be filled with all the things you’ll need to get ready for Santa’s arrival. Inside I always put a new pair of  Christmas pj’s for each girl, a Christmas story to read before bed, a movie to watch as a family and popcorn because who watches a movie without it! Cookie cutters or Betty Crocker cookie mix to make cookies for Santa and this year I also added a new board game to all play together.

It definitely fills our house with laughter and love and is by far my favourite day of the entire year. I think I will continue to do this with them until they wont let me anymore because it helps us in this crazy busy life to come together and be a family. What is your favourite thing to do with your kids at Christmas time?

Happy Hump Day 


Pj’s are from carters, movie from walmart, book from chapters. to be added popcorn and cookie mix. not pictured mouse trap game purchased at toysrus.